DAY#17 - I should be in jail
I have gone through some desperate food struggles in my life. Yesterday was one of them. I know some of you will relate and others will contemplate calling the local hospital to see if they can haul me away.
When I was in my early 20s I used to drive a few hours away from my house for business once a week, have some meetings and come home. Usually by the time I was on my way home it was late at night and I was hungry for my 'fourth' meal. I would stop at the local Dunkin Donuts before getting on the highway. While in the store I would look at all my selections and try to decide on a donut to buy. But the longer I stood there the more I wanted to try a bunch of donuts and eventually the guy behind the counter would ask me what I wanted and I would start listing donuts and end up with a box of a dozen.
Back in my car and driving down the highway, I would consume my first donut quickly and start on number two or three. By the time i picked up number four, I would be thinking "what am I doing?" I certainly wasn't hungry but the process of chewing food had become a habit, like biting your fingernails. I would say to myself, 'if I keep this up I am gonna eat the whole box' and then in a split second I would be possessed by clear thinking. I rolled down the window, grabbed the box and threw the donuts out of the car as I sped down the highway.
I do not recommend littering and I apologize to whoever had to pick up my litter. I just needed to flee from evil or be consumed by it. I do wonder exxactly what the next person driving down the road behind me thought. Seeing a handful of donuts laying scattered on the blacktop. I am sure it made for an amusing crime scene.
Yesterday, I was having an issue with food. I was hungry and in the mood for food. I rooted through the cupboard found something to eat and then I just took the food out of my cupboard and threw it in the garbage can. I thought to myself, 'that was wasteful,' but at the same time I could have eaten it and it would have been wasteful too. It reminded me of my donuts and the need to flee or be consumed.
For those of you on your journey for better health you are invited to the weight room. We now have a couple dozen members and a few discussions have started. I am encouraged by the dialog. No pressure, but if you are looking for some friends in the same boat, join us! WEIGHT ROOM